Master of all trades

People think I'm so clever because I master all these trades and things and interests.  Part of it is my special interests like with gardening but a lot of it is that I don't trust others to do things.

It comes from a place of anxiety. I don't feel I can trust others or they won't do things the way I would hope for.

It's actually debilitating because I rely on me and its a truama response. Not feeling safe and not being able to trust or rely on others because for years your needs were unmet in this sometimes cruel world.