Give your sister 70 excuses

 I've been in quite a bit of a shut down such that I had to force myself to get to wilko because of something I needed urgently. As I was approaching totally over wealmed the nscpcc stand was outside and the woman tried to engage with me.  I felt awful but I didn't have the capacity to engage with her so I said something like no thanks.  I sensed her disapproval at me for turning by back on her going into the store.  I felt like she must have judged me and what others think of me is always important to me for some reason.

Maybe she thought I was a bad person but I've volunteered with nspcc and I'm waiting to complete the training for the role.  But she wouldn't know that she just saw someone not bothered by what she had to say or the cause she represents.

In islam there is a beautiful principle that you should give your brother or sister 70 excuses before assuming something. I wish people could give me just one, the benefit of the doubt.

The charity appeals are in full swing due to Ramadan and I feel bombarded by it constantly.  I'm really empathetic and I can't watch those appeals for hours on the TV and then not be affected.

Again I give to charity but I'm Particular about where my money goes and I research innto the organisation. So I stick to one organisation I have researched because I can't research all of them.